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An excerpt from Kelly's book "Sailing to Jessica:"
All in all, I felt pretty good. Perhaps a bit tired, which caused a little voice inside of me to wonder if I wasn't pregnant? That little grain of hope grew, despite my best efforts to squelch it.
Sixteen days after the embryo transfer, I went to a clinic in nearby Manly and had my blood drawn for a pregnancy test. The next day, I got the news: I was not pregnant.
I found Paul at the paint shed and my expression said it all. He gave me a huge hug and said he’d tidy up and walk me back to the house. I felt pathetic, standing in a paint shed full of guys while silent tears ran down my face. I left. When I got to our house, Mom tried to console me, but there was nothing she could say to make me feel better.
As the news sank in, I became angry. Angry at myself for hoping that we were pregnant. Angry at my body for rejecting Do, Re and Mi. Angry that I was on this damn emotional roller coaster again. I hadn’t considered failure when I had agreed to IVF, and now here I was, mentally and emotionally unprepared.
When Paul walked in the door 10 minutes later, I was heading out.
“Where are you going?” he asked, concerned.
“For a run,” I said. I hadn’t run in years, but I felt like punching someone, or something. No, Charlotte, I didn’t need a counselor, but I did need to vent my frustration, my a-n-g-e-r.
“Hold on a sec,” Paul said, “I’ll come with you.”
I nodded impatiently. It would be safer to have Paul with me since it was already becoming dark outside. Given how mad I felt, though, Paul would have to protect any would-be thugs from me...
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